Different kind of love.

Någonting inom mig är superkänsligt. Jag börjar böla till allt, bilder, tankar, musik.
Jag orkar inte leva i det förflutna längre, men nuet skrämmer mig. Jag önskar att jag fick ligga och vila. Hela tiden.

Lite konstigt hur helt plötsligt en ny vers i min favorit-eminemlåt känns relevant.

So after a year and 6 months it's no longer me that you want
But I love you so much it hurts
Never mistreated you once
I poured my heart out to you
Let down my guard swear to god
I'll blow my brains in your lap
Lay here and die in your arms
Drop to my knees and I'm pleading
I'm trying to stop you from leaving
You won't even listen so fuck it
I'm trying to stop you from breathing
I put both hands on your throat
I sit on top of you squeezing
'Til I snap you neck like a Popsicle stick
Ain't no possible reason I could think of to let you walk up out this house
And let you live
Tears stream down both of my cheeks
Then I let you just go and just give
And before I put that gun to my temple
I told you this

And I would've done anything for you
To show you how much I adored you
But it's over now
It's too late to save our love
Just promise me you'll think of me every time you look up in the sky and see a star.